My Imperfections

ch.

You bring life through my imperfections

Not stopping to criticize

Still not thinking less of me

You still bring your blessings

v. 

Hey, you're always looking for the best in me

you see that I am trying

I know you believe in me

Overlooking what shouldn't be seen

v.

Doubt can overrun my mind in these situations

but you keep your faith

reminding me to keep my faith

cause glory to God will overpower all of this

Br.

Not once you've given up on me

Keeping me alive and completely free

A Little Thought

So here I am crying out

It's just you and me

I feel you now

Surround me with your love

Come take away all that's between us

So I can see you completely

This Is What I See

Chorus:

Standing there, i think of a perfect place

A place of no expectations and no worries

This is where I can be my complete self

Im instantly taken to this place

I wish i could stay forever

But i need to go and let someone else feel

Verse1:

Standing in awe of the view in front of me

A large rock offers me a seat

The mist of the stream touches my face

As i look up to picture what i see

Pre Chorus:

Oh, how i want to be swept away

As im thinking of this place to be

Verse2:

The waterfall brings melody to my song

This song im writing for you

I feel new as i smell the trees

The trees in the forest i sit underneath

Bridge:

I dont want to come out

cause this place is what i dream

it metaphors a good thing

something worth living for

Just when i thought everything was going well...

Lately,, ive been realizing a lot of stuff and making changes and just living life in a different set of eyes. because of this ive felt so much better about life in general and thought its going just perfect. that is until today. I walked in that room and saw her laying there, it felt like a dream, i was the first to see her. it felt so weird, like it wasnt real... but it was. God decided it was time to take her. I yelled out to my mom that shes passed out on the floor and i cant check her pulse because her arms are under her body, and with her being on the heavy set end, it wouldnt be that easy. 911 was called and they showed up. Death didnt even occur in my head at all... not one time. cause she did have a lot of medical conditions, i thought maybe something happened along those lines. Not even one thought of death crossed my mind. She was just laying there so helpless... i wish i could have done something, but there was nothing i could have done. Just laying on the floor next to her bed... that was my last time seeing her... thats so upsetting. She had such a kind heart. You could talk to her and she would be more than willing to engage in a conversation with you. Although she was very quiet, you could easy pass by her and not notice... but i was sure because of the way she is being very kind hearted, i would always say hi or ask how shes doing everytime i passed her. Whats horrible is that she was going to be moving into my house w my family in 2 weeks. Ive always been interested in her, i never really took that much action to that but ive always wanted to get to know her better. I wanted to her stories of how she really is and how she grew up. Or maybe stories of when she was in the military. but anyways, the paramedics got there and went into the room where she was lying. A couple minutes passed and then the lead medic came out and gave me and my mom the horrible news. immediately my mom became hysterical. there was nothing i could do except just hug her and be with her as we just heard the news.Just hearing my mom scream out why? it gave me chills and i knew it was real by then... it started hitting me. I just stood there hugging my mom not believing what had just happened.

Bringing Back Memories

I walked in there this morning not realizing what my mind was about to do. I stood there along with the other hundreds of people listening, singing, ..... thinking. Oh it was great, don't get me wrong, but i get those old feelings and memories back again. Those that were meaningful to me. Ones that i thought one day would come true. Can we just do it again? Its not the same with this change. I know God still has a plan, I just don't know whom it's supposed to be with. I love music. Can't I just do music then? Can it for once be the way i want it, or am i suppose to be chill about it. Im not one to push my words onto another person but should i? My whole dream is to play music for you. I want to play music for you that i actually feel apart of. Right now i just feel like a "tour dog". I wanna be apart of something real and then also feel apart of it and needed. There was once it was like this, then something happened. I didn't realize it til it was gone anyway so i cant place blame on anyone, that would be wrong. But oh man, if i could re-do stuff, i sure would. I don't know what i can do to feel more apart of it. I don't know what to   do to be able to have this once again. Maybe its the way i live. Maybe God wants me to fix areas of my life before he puts this band back together. i know i have high hopes, but to me, that group of guys works IF, and thats a strong if, we all give it our best. We are talented. i know God has given me gifts. He has also given me a passion and that is to play music for him. When is God going to bring the right people to me to make this happen. Do i have the right people right now? it doesnt feel like it, cus i dont feel apart of it. it doesnt click as well as the other one. I feel bad cus i feel like i messed up alot of stuff back when it was going good for us. I wasn't totally "into it" like the others were and i think i brought them down... so far down that now its gone and im trying to bring it back up because i ee the potential and the importance of it all. Who am i kidding? i cant change peoples minds. We'll all stay this way til we get tired of it.... Just like he said this morning... "ill be here til God tells me otherwise". Its a good thing he seems to change alot cus he  hears from God.

Crowd Song

Verse 1:

So you're not thinking of the future, or maybe the consequences
With the stacks of masks you've obtained over time
Joining this new Fad, you became one of them, yeah the ones that don't care
Stop faking that smile, you're why i've never become fake
Morals are dropping like stones, I think you love who you are

Pre-Chorus 1:

The holes you're digging will bury you later on
You're coffin only has room for one
I wont be dragged down with you

Chorus:

Oh People
You try to shape me
You want to make me
But I can't let that happen

Don't talk like you're different
You're all the same
Bringing me down, you and your crowd
There's no fame in this game

I make enough mistakes on my own

Verse 2:

With just one step you lost it all
You forgot who you are, being without your true self
Open your eyes and look at whats made you
Drop those washed up deadbeats and cut your loses
We probably won't remember you after all you put us though

Pre-Chorus 2:

Your life is screaming horror
When is the line drawn
Where is the point you don't come back

Chorus 2:

I know, it's hard for all of us
Take that step, it gets easier
Just come on a ride with me
Let me show you what its like

Really, give it all a chance

Carnival Love

Don't give it away to someone that will toss it on the ground.
Love someone for who they are.
Theres the fake love all over the carnivals. Sitting next to her on the rides, standing around letting her crawl in your jacket to keep from the cold. You think life has nothing wrong to offer.

Thats the carnival world you live in
The bright lights and the shining smiles
In this phony world you've been
Taking pictures with your mind
Of the one you think nothing can go wrong

Love (1st)

It's that feeling i get, it keeps me around. I want to keep her to myself, everyone has their struggles, so many different ones. Love can be so oveerwhelming it consumes you. Soon you will realize it's not like how it was in the beginning. You actually need to work at it. You change to what you think is better for you and her. Doing anything to protect your relationship. But it gets heavy to carry around and continuing the weight might be questioned. You don't think you can do it just anymore. Although it seems if you just switch your mindset to try, everything gets better after while. You have to be willing to try to make love work. Coming natural to love does not happen. Love leads to compromises. When that inital feeling fades away, its up to you if you want to keep the flame burning bright or let it sllowly burn out